Beautifully Impossible.

It's illogical, it's ridiculous to consider, it's crazy and truly impossible to explain.  If you had told me.. one year  ago that I would click on a blog that belonged to a girl in South Carolina, and she would almost instantly fill a void in my life, rip wide open and define best friend flawlessly.  That she would take the title from the best friend I had - had for nearly two decades..  I never, not in a million years would have believed you.

People just don't meet their best friend, from across the country, let alone at 27 years old.  Apparently God had other plans for us, and He allowed the impossible to be something just beautiful.  Beautifully impossible, and ever possible and remarkable.

Amy will always be a better friend to me then I will ever be to her.  What she's done, who she's been is nothing short of an answer to a prayer, an individual placed in my life when I was dying basically.  My heart was lost in every possible day, and God knew better then I and he allowed myself His gift.  

The most extraordinary thing you can do for someone is love them.  Someone who is fighting so hard to become who they need to be. Even in moments of true discouragement and disappointment.  After our first fight some nine months later she said as we hung up the phone.. "I love you.." And for someone with a heart like mine it was extraordinary. It is one of her greatest gifts in life.. her ability to love.  So clearly.  When I can close down, shut off, and preserve my heart so quickly. And that is why she will always be something extraordinary to me, she loved me when I was broken, barely sober and hanging on for dear life..  She fought for me and with me when necessary.  My soul will forever be knit with hers.

She is the only one I would eat pigs feet with, or questionable jelly beans.. jump into dumpsters with or climb to the place where Angels Land.

She is the girl married to the boy that sets the bar for what I only hope to have.  An example, a wish, but above all a prayer.  I hope one day I can find a boy that does the same for me, and she can have that comfort, the mutual gift. And should it never find me, I'll be forever thankful knowing how cared for and loved she is.. I never have need to worry.  

She is why many of those around of us have said, "I wish I had a friendship like that.." and I do my best to never for a second take it for granted for that very reason.  We've discussed it many times and it always ends with, "we're lucky, we're blessed."

And I said to her just a few days ago as we pondered our crazy year... "we definitely didn't choose the easiest path.." To which she agreed.  But then again, the more I think about it.. we weren't the ones who chose it.  So that is where I can forever place my trust, and unrelenting gratitude.

Fingers Crossed, forever and ever.. amen.

From the East to the West, I love you.

Thank you Ames for a remarkable year.  Thank you for the things only we know, the things I can't post here.  You my dear, dear, dear friend.. changed my life.  You changed me.

Whose changed your life in the past year?